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02 December 2007 @ 02:36 am

Please repost this any and everywhere you can.

With love,

- Steven
23 November 2007 @ 09:11 am
I am only responding to say that I have no response. So roll your eyes and keep your secrets... I'll make mine as well.

I will make every single post after this "friends only". It's not fair or healthy for me to keep putting things online that I know only you will read. Same goes for you. Other than me, the only people reading what you have to say are on your list... and if they aren't, it isn't hard to add them.

It's the last favor I'd ask of you. You say you'll be there when it counts... well it counts right now. You can do me this favor or not... your decision will speak itself.

- fin.
22 November 2007 @ 10:17 pm
Things are looking up...

I was happier last night than I had been in months and months. So, thank you for that. Here's to many more.


- Steven

P.S. I'm happy. Look, I bounced back.
19 November 2007 @ 03:08 am
I'm starting to come around. Eating is becoming a bit more regular. Sleep is not quite there, yet. I'm forgiving some things and forgetting others. I'm crying more times than I care to. I wish I could stop checking your journal and I wish you'd block your entries. I wish I felt like any of this mattered to you as much as it mattered to me. If I could just feel like you cared about any of this even half as much as I did / do, I might be able to sleep a bit easier. I wish I could find my ground.

I'll get there, though... but, given the opportunity to start over, I wouldn't have done a single thing differently. I'm a bit much for most, but I'm good enough for someone... somewhere.

You won't read this... I suppose you're stronger than me.
17 November 2007 @ 02:27 am
I just wasn't strong enough.
04 November 2007 @ 05:20 am
My anxiety level has been very close to crippling as of late, which has been worsened by my dwindling supply of prescription valium.

Now, for those of you who deal with large serious amounts of anxiety and depression, I found something that really relieves it, and its not weed or alcohol. Non-drowsy Dramamine basically saved me from myself this weekend.

It works just as effectively as the valium does, without the absent-mindedness that usually accompanies taking it.

So, to those of you looking for an over-the-counter solution to your anxiety, give it a try. It really curbs my obsessiveness and my overall stress level.
01 November 2007 @ 01:12 pm
And if I show you my dark side
Will you still hold me tonight?
And if I open my heart to you
And show you my weak side
What would you do?
31 October 2007 @ 10:14 pm
do you remember me? how we used to be?
do you think we should be closer?
31 October 2007 @ 12:53 am
the world's worst UTI.
30 October 2007 @ 11:34 pm
I just got done ripping up a couple bibles to create the backdrop for the Sohns' photo shoot. If I wasn't going to hell before, I'm damn sure going to now.

I want you and everyone in the world to know that I miss every single thing.

... and, as if things couldn't be worse, my iPod decided to delete everything on it. Please, point me in the direction of the nearest ledge or psychiatrist... whichever you think might be closer.